CLEAR MIND '09: NO DISTRACTIONS!!!

First and Foremost:

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Now, I know most of you probably thought Lisa Turtle was dead but she's I'm not. I wasn't blogging because, up until two weeks ago, I really didn't have much to say. I've been in a 2.5 year funk... Now, some may attribute that to the nearly 3 years of my life I wasted on some little boy who didn't deserve me BUT I know the bulk of it can not be placed on him. I've had a lot of unfortunate things happen and I was not equipped to handle them. But that's all neither here not there now because the situation is what it is. So, this is the place I'm in now. I'm trying to let it all go. As our new president has declared time and time again, CHANGE is on it's way. This year I vow to not sit on the sidelines of life. I want to be a star player. I have no long-term goals (excluding happiness) as of yet but I hope through completing a series of short-term goals I will discover some things for me in the long-term. I have to put all of my negative thoughts out to pasture. This is why I have declared this year: CLEAR MIND '09: NO DISTRACTIONS. I know this year may be due to things beyond my control (the state of the world) but I know I can make it. The last 2 years have been more than I ever thought I could live through and I'm still here.

What I'm saying is, I'm on my way back to the right path. I got a little lost but I found those breadcrumbs I had left and I'm finding my way back. I'm getting back to the basics. This year is for me and when my process is over... The world will see how it has made me a better person! I will share my experiences here but they won't all be serious and stuff - That's just not me! I will still be random, irreverent, and borderline retarded. I hope y'all continue to vibe with me and I will update more! That's for serious because I have so many things I want to share. The process will come in me re-doing the look of the blog and changing the name and possibly the url. I hope you guys continue to feel me though. I love all the e-friends I made and I hope to make more (lol).

-J

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Thoughts

I got a message from someone today on Facebook (and they know who they are) that reminded me why I like to share what I write. Even though I don't update this the way I should, I'm always writing something. It's just... Sometimes I get so sad and upset and down and angry and crazy that I just go inside myself and hide.

I started this danish because I don't want to hide inside myself anymore. I don't want to be a prisoner of my mind. I want to be open. I want to be free. And if I can entertain, educate, cure my boredom, become a better writer in the process... All the better. I guess it's like self-help. LoL.

I'm probably going to revamp this danish again. I'll probably write with more clarity, more honesty, and be more raw. I will do it for me, for you, for us. Even if only one person reads, that'll be awesome. So... Soon enough, I'll make a comeback. Right now though, I'm off to read FunkyBlackChick and Black Girl On Campus and things. :)

-Jasmine

Subject: apology....... :0( [Straight from the MySpace Presses!!!]

Hello Hello! The queen of the hiatus is back (temporarily). I have had so many things going on which I will hopefully be able to unfold for all of you in a series of posts. The first is a little update of Mr. Black-White-Girl Fetish. Mr. Black-White-Girl Fetish is from a post called, "I AM NOBODY'S FETISH." If you aren't familiar with the story or you need a refresher, I will give a little back story but the full story is at the links.

Anywho, I met this guy who seemed nice, we were getting along until... He decided to tell me that the reason he liked me is because he like black girls who act white. He touched a nerve with that one. I was livid. Any chance of romance was dead. I continued to talk to him anyway because his fawning over me was both comical and flattering... This was, until, I read his MySpace blogs that declared that he will not date or marry a black girl. Only a thick, caucasian and or "foreign type" female. I confronted him on the issue, hit him with my realness and he didn't like it too much. I posted our conversation on here and linked his MySpace... LoL. Anyway, he has written me back to apologize for disrespecting me and women in general. Well... He probably just wants to fuck me. Here's what he wrote to me; I didn't respond but if someone has a good suggestion to what I should say to him, that'd be amazing.

Just wanted to say sry 4 actin like an asshole last time we talked. I just
wanted to know if I could still be ur friend? I dont know when you will get this but I am going back to school in a few weeks. Mayb I will run into u at a club or movies. *wink wink* ttys..

He's just trying to get in my pants, I am not that stupid. In other news, I want these shoes.

*Sorry for runons, I'm falling asleep as I type.

That Darn Lisa!

I keep disappearing and there are many reasons behind it but I'm trying to do better. I'm not just disappearing from my danish but in many aspects of my life... There's many reasons and when I figure out how to properly convey them to the people who care or can be helped from such experiences I will write them down and speak the words that need to be said.

Until then, I don't know what I'll write about or how often I'll write. I have ideas in my head but when I try to type it all out I quit. Hmm...



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Now playing: Alicia Keys - Lesson Learned (Feat. John Mayer)
via FoxyTunes

Welcome Back ,Turtle.

Hello loves, Lisa Turtle has been on an accidental hiatus. My life has been uber crazy lately. I finally stopped dying. I've been partying. I think my dramaship is finally (almost) over. And I went all Britney Spears crazy and cut my own hair (but I'm not bald.) It was damaged so I cut the relaxer out. It was a freeing feeling. I've been getting back to my usual self lately so prepare for more optimistic and happier danishes from me in the future.

Let's do a before/after:

Before (From "Why I'll Never Put Another Relaxer In My Hair")

After (From Like 4 minutes ago):


I've been in such a good mood and tonight is my favorite night. It's club night a.k.a. ho night a.k.a. FISHNETS NIGHT!!!!